brief trip of Malaysia

Came back from one-month-long stay in a very religious country, Malaysia. Here there are Buddhism, Islam, Hinduism, Christianity…., all sorts of major religions out there. That also makes it, besides the different cultural influences, as a fascinating place to visit indeed. I’m kind of non-religionist, don’t really believe in any kind of one God only. Have I turned out happier or the other way round for that? As one non-religionist, I have no answer for that either. I stop questioning about who I am, where do I come from, or what will I be, that sort of issues for long since grew up and grown older. Assumed that if I left those questions behind so it couldn’t bother me in face, therefore, I would, or pretend, enjoy life more. Still, once in a while I kept questioning that what have I done deserved a second chance in this life, in terms of reincarnation that I couldn’t trust, what’s the purpose of the second chance I had anyway? Have I ever be able to find my soul back since once lost it? What makes me a human being after all? There is simply ever no easy answer for that I believe. It took me years to figure out. Did it matter then, I ask myself? Or did it not become consoling to believe that death ended absolutely? What was I trying to recover? don't know yet. But, somehow, in any perspective, have I found the balance in my life or have I been spoiled my life in some point for all these extra years I had for now? I couldn’t help wondering and keep looking for….. Here I am, wondering here and wandering there on this planet still. It is always a big sunshine above over the sky in Malaysia. Even so they do have raining season though.

I'm right here, still

Do you see me? ........

No, you don't?

How, wondering?

I'm here.....

Where?

Somewhere behind the scene....

But....., don't know where to look for.....

See me from your heart, not from the eyes.

...... ...... ......

Do you see me now? I'm right here, still.

figure

Oh, I remember that night, the longest day of May.

That usually overtaken day in town, happened once a month in Tuesday.

Hospital date, aimless looking at bookstore, friends meeting  and nude study.....

Exhausted at the end of day after all. 

Plus another 1 and half hours on express bus,  way back to home, barely open of my sour eyes, until the street lamp flashed me up. Home, sweet home is close....., just about midnight, a perfect time to call it a day. I need my bed, my own pillow so badly.

Once upon a month, I am a city wonderer.....

my soul likes to travel

My soul likes to travel, and, I think that's because I like to keep distance. Keep distance with others, from here to there. Suggest the intimacy is not a good idea for me though, for I can't stay too long, long enough to fall in love with a place, a person, a window view..... My soul likes to travel, and it seems I can't cope with that well. Maybe, just maybe my body don't agree with that idea. Yet, it's not my call..... Tell me is there an intimacy rule? that I wish to know..... How long is long enough? How close is close enough?

greeting

To dear all Red for Christmas (Poinsettia), here is my green greeting card of this year, taken from my garden, made by myself, absolutely organic. Share with you joyfully. 絕對貨真價實的有機，絕對貨真價實的誠意， 親手栽培的花，親手製作的卡，就差沒親手奉上啦。 朋友情誼不因距離而有所改變， 空氣中代傳話　問候ㄧ聲愉快新年好。 事實證明細心呵護ㄧ件事就能享有美麗的收穫！ 這可是我ㄧ整年的心血呢！

skyline

The perfect season to go out during Autumn. As long as the sunshine is not too biting and not too windy, I love to stay outdoor, especially the last hour before sun set, it's the most beautiful moment of a day. The skyline looks even wider and dimer, blurred to the sky out to the world. Again, these are viewed form the top of my house.

sleeping

I actually enjoy sleeping very much. That I look for a sweet dream.

morning look

I wonder why do I even bother to get up each day, every day, and on and on?

gardening fun

Have a little fun at the garden on my own no one else was invited except the fresh air remain dangling away the brief-heavy rain behind just awhile ago swing along free with the air dangling and dangling.

A way of reading

I used have breakfast along with newspaper everyday in the morning, not really good for appetites sometimes anyhow.
Do often fell bored while reading or lost among the meaning of words, and eyes dangling in the same lines over and over again, that I might just do a bit of sketch to refresh my mind, even better, amuse myself by follow the images.

This is, a way of, how I read the world.

Tears of happiness

"Imagination is more important than knowledge." -- Albert Einstein

Just about while I was wondering there’s a block in my head and the thoughts can’t flow away, and spend sometimes wandering among books, these words come out to me. Hummmm……'Imagination', exactly.

I happened found this sketch when sort things out days ago. Absolutely no idea when and how did I draw this, it must be long ago, when younger, long enough that I can’t record any of it. I’m "not afraid of dieing, but afraid of aging" aside. I guess if I don’t do any move, anything at all, I might just beat by aging instead of imagination. It would happening soon, either way.

flower on the wall

I haven’t done much of drawing lately.
My mind is not there for some reason, nothing really inspired me for one, anyhow, and I have doubt of myself.
This quick sketch was done by the other day during weekend.
It’s a nice mild early spring day. How wonderful since it’s been cold and wet long.
This plant interested me for quite a while cause I never have that before and I have no idea what the name is, besides that I didn’t expect what it would be like when it was little (as matter of fact, unlike painting, the leaves all fell apart till it grown up while the flower began to bloom). It turns out amazing. And there was a blank and free wall out there, I thought, oh well, why not fill the gap.
It is Spring! Time for a little change.

days of summer, 2007

Here are my summer days of sky, recorded mostly form the rooftop of house, while I usually take daybreak during the end of day before sunset.

Whether like it or not, 100 days of summer are close to over of this season. This year, here in Taiwan, we’ve been through or pass by 4major typhoon’s effect, one magnitude 6.6 earthquake. The highest temperature is about 34.1 Celsius so far. Roughly, it’s hot and damp. How’s that sounds to you?

The Mid-fall celebration is just around the corner (25th, Sep. also known as Full-moon holiday) in Chinese calendar, which means the summer is practically end.

Let’s all embrace the out coming autumn of 2007, shall we? Farewell, so long summer for now.

See you next year. Definitely.

raining days

Time of raining season out here in Taiwan, lately it's been rain like cats and dogs constantly.



I cannot go anywhere due to the heavy rain, even though the thunder sounds pretty scaring during midnight, yet, I enjoy the the sound of rain drops dancing on the roof.
And I happened bought a new digital camera-Canon IXUS 850IS, it comes handy though.

More pictures: flickr.com/photos/darkdarling/

green life

I love green, green plant, which is vivid. So full of life to me.
Still, green plants need sunlight, fresh air and water to grow up.
I love this idea also. None of element can be missed.

Simply play around with the images I took.







I had this Kumquat, also known as citrus, since Chinese New Year for celebrating the beginning of this year.
It’s May day already. Sorry been busy away a while that I missed the time when it's flourishing. Surprisingly, it grows up without my attention, so lively itself.



One more good thing about Kumquat, its fruit along with dried plum make a good tea. It taste a bit sweet, a bit sour and the smell is so so nice. This is how I have a cup of afternoon tea myself. I enjoy this kind of green life very much. Sunlight, water and fresh air, don’t you just love it?
And who doesn’t?